Fuhhh fuhhh~~~ (blowing away the dust) 1 year ++, that's how long i abandoned this beloved blog of mine... Let's recap what have been going on in my life all this while...
1) I got married - that's not new... hurm... pass! :P
2) The loss - We loss our beloved grandma and uncle which i still can feel their presence until now. Rest in peace and may Allah grant them the best place in Jannah, amin. Al-Fatihah :'(
3) New Life - I got a new niece, Sufiyya! She's now 6 mths old, pictures to come later
4) Long Distance Marriage - After i got married, it has been a commute marriage all the way since then, because hubby was in Perlis and me, living here in Shah Alam. But on 05.10.2013, hubby departed for Japan to continue his PHD there, which means now we are back to LDR like previously. Alhamdulillah thanks to technology, we doesn't really feel that we're far apart, except missing each other's presence physically. And thanks to our experience that we're quite used to this.
5) Resignation - My last employement date in BASF will be on 31.12.2013 (yes, means i will miss the bonus...sobs)
uhuk2~ bersawang gila blog chan~ wuuu oh yer, dah tamat dah kenkyu and slamat dah final presentation on the 20th of dec aitu. skrg tgh internship kat NTT atsugi, kanagawa prefecture, near tokyo.
byknyer nak citer, tp dah dkt pkol 2 pg! yabai, klo xtdo skrg tkt bsok letih/nebou. syakaijin (konon) ni natte kara, plg lambat tdo pon pkol 11.30, nih dah tlebih time sgt dah nih... hehe
brt skrg sgtttt yabai... naek byk giler akibat stress kenkyu + exam yg byk giler arituh... then igt dah stat internship bleyhla nak dietto, tup2 dtg cnie, mkn pnya la sdp, pastuh ramai mmber plak kat cnie... everyweek kluar... biler kluar sah2 makan best2~
went to the pharmacy and seek for help from the pharmacist, but didnt help at all!!
well he was kind & helpful, he asked me to take vitamin c and vitamin e everyday, but the prob is i take all those vitmns everyday!! (xpcy tnya bdak2 toyohashi yg selongkar my supplements arituh!!)
yg pelekat2 for shoulder tuh pon bkotak2 dah habes... tp x kurang2 pon sakitnya!!
again, it's killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's even hard to sit, imagining me sitting at my study table with my head resting on a pillow, bdn tegak tp pale mcm org tgh tdo baring... haiyooo2!!
helpppp meeeee!!!!
feel like wrapping something around my neck for support. pffft!!
p/s: pain2 go away, and please dun come again anytime soon, me need to study!
jenuhla nak byr bil air bln nieh, mandi 4 kali sehari. pg, tghari, after habeh klas/kenkyu, before tdo.
jarak balik skolah and sblm tdo tuh besenya 2 jam lbih jer. huhu. yabai na x elok mandi mlm2, tp xthnla panas sgt...
beselah selama 4thn dok jepun slama ni bulan 7 skolah dah start cuti, so biasanya dlm tarikh2 skrg knpem dah ada kat msia tgh melantak nasi goreng ayam mamak. hoho. terbaik laa!!
tp thn nih cuti bln 8 n 9. huhu.tpaksa aa menempuh kepanasan jepun yg panasnya thp maksimum ms bln 7,8.
tp syukur bulan 9 sensei bg balik msia, dptla melepas rindu kat family n kucing2 and yg plg best dpt beraya!! insyaAllah...
ckp kat sensei dlm 2mggu kot... tp dah book tix utk 18 hari. aper kes?? haha.
lupa nak ckp kat sensei 2 minggu x termasuk weekend!! haha
okla, pnat br balik lab, data x seiri lg, besok kna present dah. seiri time bola jap lagi aa kot... heee~ *wink*
saikin mmg letih, letih yg teramat, meeting berjam2, need to contact someone from mekodai (nagoya university of tech) sbb my kenkyu nih kyodou kenkyu (cooperate ker...?) dgn diorg, so nak tnya org yg wat kenkyu sama tema ngan saya nih pakai jikken kei (alat eksperimen) aper?
sensei soh saya wat research guna coklat n cookies (the ones that only from名糖産業(nama company)), slama nieh dok wat eksperimen pakai ham n sosej jer... yerp bebeh, working wif vavi, tiap2 hari kne samak ok? yokatta la sensei soh saya wat guna coklat, cookies, candies, ice-cream. tp ice-cream mcm impossible jer...
lps nih kalo bdn yg agak 'sehat' nih bertambah2 'comel' slhkan sensei la, sbb tiap2 hari pas abes eksperimen, coklat2 n cookies tuh sensei soh bwk blk makan. wahahaha...
coklat n cookies sponsored hockay? takkan la nak tolak rezeki pulak kan? hihi
anyway, nnti2 ader kanousei(kebrgkalian) kne ulang-alik ke 名工大, meaning kne ulang-alik nagoya, gmok la jawabnya tiap2 hari tapau kebab kang! haha. tp ok jgak, since i read from sheri's blog, their shokudou serves halal food, yippie! cuma problemnyer skrg, duit jerla... kekkou kakaru... huhu
ckp psl duit, td member2 lab dok mintak mcm2 mende kat sensei, sorg nieh propose kat sensei nak bli satu machine nieh...
sama research ngan saya, tp dia tema laen, dier kna kaji semut2 n rambut2 dlm ham.
budak 1: "sensei, saya rs mcm nak order machine nihla utk research saya..."
sensei: "yeker? meh tunjuk sket kat sensei!"
budak 1: "yg nieh..... tp harga ¥50man(=RM19k)lah sensei..."
sensei: "eyh, murahnya, no hal! bli3!!"
wahhhh.... 50man murah rupanya, br saya tau...
pastuh ader sorg lg,
budak2: "saya nak order nih sensei..... (sambil garu2 kepala... mmg tabiat dia)"
bdak2: "¥170man(=RM63k)lah sensei..... (sambil garu2 kepala & telinga)"
sensei: "ok jer, order lah trus!!"
perghh, mggu lps senior2 br jer order machine2 yg setiap satunya harga ¥150man(=RM55k) lebeyh.
saya terpk, senangnyer la nak kluar duit byk2 tuh, men ckp mcm tuh jer rupanya. sy igt kalau nak order mahal2 kne la buat surat proposal ker aper ke kan...
saya terpk lg skalik, kalau sy belajar kat msia adakah semudah nih saya dpt guna alat2 canggih nih?? sy xtau sbb xder pengalaman blaja kat msia, tp dr apa yg saya dgr dr rakan2 yg juga lecturers, student malaysia kurang research sbb kurang teknologi.
yela, machine2 hi-tech tuh mahal bebenor, mgkinla digunakan di kilang2 and company2 tp mungkin tiada di universiti2.....
tiba2 rs insaf gila, baikla saya hargai peluang saya wat research kat sini dgn kemudahan yg disediakan. YOSHHH!!
eyh td ckp nak ltk pics kan, igt nak ltk gmbar bebudak n sensei2 lab saya, tp gambar dlm comp lab la plak... hurm... so, sy ltk jela gambar2 dr aktiviti2 xsbrp yg terbaru bsama warga2 toyohashi.
makan2 wif hana chan kat 'HERO'. thanx hana for the treat
Sex & the City nite for us gals!!wif Hana on the nite, sebbek ada hana, teman makan luar bila sangap sorg2.nieh namanya buang tebiat camwhoring kat toilet seblah lab during weekendnieh gambar lama aitu, tp rindu nak jln2 ngan adik manis sorg nih. *wink*
dah lama dah x batuk... saikin batuk makin trok, and plg best bangun pg td suara x kluar... pegy lab ckp ngan member2 n sensei bisik2 jer... pegy pejabat plak, makcik pejabat tuh dok ajuk2 plak aku ckp bisik2... aduhaii...
demo2,目標を達するまでに最後まで頑張りたい~~~ doakan saya yer sumer!!
p/s: rindu mama, abah, akak, natchan, mayya, amir, nemo, salem, dodo, and the rest of my family.
p/s/s: kepada si dia, selamat bekerja yer!! (kpd bakal2 student si dia, kalo hangpa buli encik Safwan nieh, siap la hangpa aku seligi sorg2!!) wakakaka
manusia xlepas dr dugaan... lepas satu, satu dtg... xsmpat nak selesaikan satu prob, satu lg prob dtg... hampir putus asa dah smlm... tp dinasihatkan dgn baik oleh mr s...
Allah xkan beri dugaan kpd org yg xmampu menghadapinya...
saya tidakla sekuat mana... smlm saya asik persoalkan... kenapa aku? kenapa mslh lagi? my bad, x patut saya persoalkan itu semua, semua adalah kerjaNya n semua ada hikmah disebaliknya, insyaAllah... wpon dugaan mendtg tanpa henti sekarang nieh, moga2 Allah akan permudahkan kan jalanku masa hdpn nanti, amin... ya Allah berikanlah kekuatan serta keimanan pdku utk menempuh dugaanMu ya Allah... amin...
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i just luv dis song...
Broken Strings by James Morison feat Nelly Furtado
Let me hold you For the last time It's the last chance to feel again But you broke me Now I can't feel anything
When I love you, It's so untrue I can't even convince myself When I'm speaking, It's the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up I try to hold on, but it hurts too much I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts And lies worse How can I give anymore When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing We are turning into dust Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire When there's nothing left to save It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late
Oh it tears me up I try to hold on, but it hurts too much I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel I can't tell something that ain't real
Well the truth hurts, And lies worse How can I give anymore When I love you a little less than before
But we're running through the fire When there's nothing left to save It's like chasing the very last train When we both know it's too late (too late)
You can't play on broken strings You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel I cant tell you something that ain't real
Well truth hurts, And lies worse How can I give anymore When I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time It's the last chance to feel again
Nagoya? wat about nagoya? no, i dun live in nagoya and no, i dun study in nagoya. so, why all of sudden Nagoya?
hurm... ntahla... actually tomorrow ada majlis sobetsukai(farewell) KUJ kat nagoya utk menghargai student yg grad tahun n to say babai kat dorg... awat dorg wat ari kamis pon i dunno lah, awat x wat time weekend adik2? nieh pon br jer tau... thn nih kuj agak senyap, kami hampir2 lupa akan kewujudan kuj, smpai rs nak wat persatuan sndri ja. apa kes??
so, nak pegy ker x? ati rs nak pegy sbb nieh maybe last time dpt jmpa kawan2 sebatch yg dah nak grad before dorg balik msia. yala, kang balik msia ntah kontek ntah tak dah, mnla tau kan, tp harap2 biarlah kekal tsunagari(pertalian) yg terbina. syg kalo biarkan cmtuh ja kan? wpon saya xdpt grad sama2 ngan korg, extend sethn (insyaAllah sethn ja), tp saya rasa bangga dgn sahabat2 sy yg grad nih!tahniah korg!*clap2* so, dat's why saya rs nak pegy utk meraikan dorg. tambah plak dpt makan nasi beriani free kan. haha
member2 kat toyohashi pon ajak pegy utk meramaikan n memeriahkan lg rombongan from toyo, tp knapa yer hati berbelah bagi? tiap2 kali ada event kat nagoya saya akan mcmnie, rs nak jmpa kawan2 membuak2 sgt, sbb bukan senang nak jmpa ramai2, wpon dorg x kesah pon kalo xjumpa saya! haha tp saya mmg suka jmpa ramai2, catching-up pasal dorg, etc... tp ntahlah... nagoya secara generalnya mmg saya suka la. jln2 nagoya pon en Safwan juga akui byk yg sy dah arif. lagipon tuhla bndar besar plg dkt dgn toyohashi. sudah pastila org yg kuat berjln n shopping mcm sy nieh arif dgn tmpat2 di nagoya (note: sbg org luar nagoya,bleyh dikira arifla...hukhuk) saya n safwan jga slalu lepak2 di nagoya. kira kesimpulannya, nagoya bestla secara general.
cuma secara specificnya, saya agak fobia dgn kawasan meikodai. apatah lagi bila ada event yg diadakan di kaikan(international house) nya. tiba2 rs seram sejuk, n creepy x pasal2. bercampur aduk prasaan, yg pastinya suma pasaan yg negatif2 ajer. takut, creepy, feeling unwelcomed, gerun, feeling betrayed, lemah lutut, dsb. haha. pelik bukan? slalu ada negatif vibe di situ. owh, satu lg yg saya xgemar, bbrp kali ada kes bila bkenalan dgn kohai(junior) nagoya br masuk, bila saya perkenalkan diri sbgAisha dr Toyohashi, serta pelajar thn berapa, acapkali dibalas dgn "ohh~ ex- ####" eyh?" satu lagi reason yg menyebabkan saya x selesa menghadirkan diri ke majlis seperti ini. iyela bila dikata mcmtuh, i cant help but think of wat they've heard about me, etc. wpon realitinya maybe xdak apa2 pon, but dat thought had crossed my mind. well, oh well.
kesimpulannya, saya xtau nak decide samada nak pegy atau x besok nieh~~~ nasi beriani free tuhhh~~~
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arini, dua sensei n seorg rakan tegur saya pakai selendang pemberian kakak saya nih. mereka ckp sy nampakceria nberseri2(ok, nieh tambah sndri. haha).
pakai selendang nieh, xnampak muka saket sangat, kata mereka! wah3. tiap2 arila sy pakai slendang nih nampak gayanya! hakhak
note: gambar gedik pgg lipstick nih diamik sabtu lepas utk mem'promote' lipstick kat mama saya ya! bukan saja2 wat props!
(time nieh mama reply..."kesiannya tgk muka isha yg mmg nampak saket...isha x baik lagi??" owhh, u can never hide anything from ur mum, they always know) T_T and she continues, "btw, cantik kaler lipstick tuh. nampak natural!" haha
wat i feel like wearing dis selendang?? --> hurm saya rasa mcm candy bergerak! haha
dtg negara org, tggal di negara org, blajar di negara org nieh, mmg byk n mcm2 pengalaman yg dilalui... suma org ada pengalaman msg2, yg menarik, gembira, cdeyh, perit, dsb. semuanya dugaan dr-Nya... bg saya suma itu ialah dugaan, baik yg ups, n downs. (note: setiap org mmpunyai pendpt yg berbeza)
utk perkara2 gembira, ada dua tafsiran samada ianya ganjaran mahupun dugaan... kdg2 rs gembira sgt, mcm suma mende dah ada, semuanya baik2 belaka, bukan? bg saya, saya prefer menganggap ini sbg dugaan, sebab bila kita dlm keadaan begini senang utk kita hanyut dan alpa kerana merasakan suma menda n kebahagiaan telah kita miliki.
utk perkara yg sebaliknya pula, juga ada dua tafsiran samada ianya balasan mahupun dugaan... utk kes ini, saya lbih suka menganggap ianya adalah kedua2nya. iya, mgkin balasan terhadap dosa saya yg 'bergelen2' itu , dan pd waktu yg sama ianya juga adlh dugaanNya utk melihat bgmana kita menghadapi ini...
hurm... termembebel pulak, bukan apa blog ni dah jd tmpat meluah perasaan pulak... saya akui mmg tidak menarik utk dibaca org ramai, tp ckpla utk saya menulis apa yg sy rasa dan apa yg buat saya gembira! haha. agak selfish ya?
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okla sy mulakan citer sy utk kali nieh...
Jumaat lalu ialah hari yg mencabar buat saya, menahan sakit setelah seminggu, akhirnya makin menjadi2 khamis mlm jumaat tuh. sakit prot, stlh melihat2 symptom2 nya saya cuak takut2 batu karang @ gallstones. nak jln pon saket semcm, so dgn rs cdeyh n hampa kerana jadual harian serta jadual lab saya terganggu, sy terpaksa jgak pergi ke hosp. yala, watever it is, 体力が一番大事、体力がなかったら、勉強とかもできないよね~ (kesihatan perlu diutamakan, kalo x ape pon x jln) kerana melalui pengalaman lalu, sy yg x mengambil kesah sgt hal kesihatan nieh, last2 memakan diri jgak. so, skrg, apa2 skalipun sy dah jd sgt alert.
so, xpela, dipendekkan cerita, mcm2 la test kne wat, tp sy nak citer pasal satu nieh.sy kene wat ct scan!OMG OMG. bukan apa slalu tgk kat tv jer, and prasaan bila tgk kat tv tuh slalunya cam "kesiannya dkt pesakit2 tuh...", tetiba sendri kena.
amat berdebar dok bilik luas cmtuh, ditinggalkan seorg diri dgn doc n nurse monitoring dr dlm blk khas n bg arahan through mic ajer, plus mesin tuh dok gerak2! ms di pertghan proses tuh tetiba tgk chy laser kat skrin tuh makin laju, then mesin tuh pon bunyinya makin kuat, bunyi mcmmesin dryer baju ok! saya pon dimasukkan dlm mesin tuh, time tuh saya terpikir, apela dorg nak wat ngan aku nieh?i feel like the machine is gonna turn me into an AVATAR!hoho.
kemuncak nya is bile dorg injek masuk ubat utk enhancement, maksudnya ubat tuh meng'clear'kan lagi rupa2 organ2 n cacing2 kerawit dlm perut saya dalam hasil scan nanti. sblm tuh sy kne sign surat yg mengatakan sy phm dgn risiko2 n kebrgkalian apabila di injek ubat nieh nnti.-->manala x cuak kan? yg plg best sebaik di injek ubat tuh, badan akan rasa panas sgt wat seketika... wah3...
so, xpela... tuh jela sy nak kongsi, result saya? hurm... biarlah rahsia. (^^)
siyes saya cuak, x tipu!
a bit on ct scan: CT or CAT scans are special x-ray tests that produce cross-sectional images of the body using x-rays and a computer. These images allow the radiologist , a medical doctor who specializes in images of the body, to look at the inside of the body just as you would look at the inside of a loaf of bread by slicing it. This type of special x-ray, in a sense, takes "pictures" of slices of the body so doctors can look right at the area of interest. CT scans are frequently used to evaluate the brain, neck, spine, chest, abdomen, pelvis, and sinuses.
i slept for over 13 hours maa!! waaa~~~ pdnla smlm mcm xsdp badan, tgh2 wat report, rs nak pitam2 plak tetiba, plus badan terketar2 sejuk.saje jer check suhu, tup2, tggi jugak suhu!! almost 39°C! apelagi, telan ubat, minum sebotol air badak, tampal kul fever, tdo (around 9++pm)... kroh3... woke up around 2 a.m to study, but muri2(impossible)! nak bgn pon xmmpu, then smbg la tdo smpi pkol 10 td! woke up feeling much better, still hv slight fever but i feel fine, n hopefully today is gonna be a very productive day for me. (productive not shopping-wise aaa, study-wise hockay!) hakhak
di kesempatan ini, saya ingin mengucapkan ribuan terima kasih to mama n abah kerana sanggup memikul berbotol air badak utk anak mereka yg senang + selalu demam ini!! luv u!!
p/s: byk air badak tiruan skrg nieh!! jgn ttipu yerr~~~
wahhh, mmg berhabuk betoila blog nieh... been busy, or lg tepat, been LAZY to write anything on dis blog since i hv my own private blog.and wats more, i dunno wat to write!! huhu
rutin harian skrg dah berubah, and i really like my rutin harian nowadays, much busier n 'packed'!it just makes me work harder n harder day by day.
and thanks to my dear lyana@norq, she sent me a very important article dat has a lot to do wif me, about me n my sakit dada, yg makin lama makin menjadi2, the article helps me a lot! thanks norq chan! mwah!and she reminded me to once in a while go to a place where i can clear my mind, a beautiful n peaceful place.
yeah, i've been doing that before, ada dis one lake? pond? xtaulah kan, kat celah2 sawah padi blkg skolah tuh yg i find very nice n peaceful, dat i went to whenever i feel tired n kusut. but it has been months, like 6 months++ maybe, saya lupakan aktiviti merehatkan minda nieh. so, thanks to norq, i've been reminded about this. (yela kalo rumah dok ngadap laut ke taman ke hutan ke laenla jgakkan? tenangla jgak bila tgk luar through sliding doors, tp nieh umah ngadap pachinko!! haih, xmembantu lgsg! haha)
owh and yes, my parents came to visit me last winter holiday. i'm sooo happy they were here, jalan2 here n there, shopping2 bagai nak rak, etc!! luv them sooo much!! so sbb xtau nak tulis aper lagi, saya letak jela sket2 gmba ms bjln2 arituh!enjoy! (^.^)where we went to?? i'll story mory later k!!♥♥♥
"Family means putting your arms around each other and being there."
p/s: owh yeah, i changed my blog template again. lol!
juz got back from clinic, suhu agak tinggi 37.8. but thank God not h1n1 okey. doc said my nadi laju bebenor (pandai ckp melayu doc nieh). mmg pon smpai x leyh lena sbb dok dup dap dup dap ja jantung. tp okey kot...br pas mkn ubat, n tggu ms nak lelap jer nieh. ngee~
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wat about the title? ok, alkisahnya mmg i feel old n seasoned btol lately nieh. sesape yg ader facebook sure tau kan, friends' updated status will be featured dekat news feed kiter tuh kan? same la jgak kalo dorg komen2 gmbar or comment2 kat wall rakan2 mereka yg juga rakan2 kiter. so, reading all those stuffs really makes me feel old.kenapakah?? let's see... i give u an example k...
"shaye wase shaye shuke la pakai waju nieh" --> oh, ok... "awak mamam apa tadi? shaye nak mamam jugak, pewut lwapar...."-->errr, oo..k.... "gwedik lah awak nieh, shuke hati shaye lew"--> nieh ok kot... huhu
mase memula baca dis kind ok 'bahasa', saya rs mcm saya buta bahasa melayu kah?? siyes xpaham. 2,3 kali tgk br dpt figure out. i think dis is how our parents feel, when their children started texting them using dis sort of "bahasa org muda". i remember when i first started texting my mum n dad using the word giler@gila. such as "lapaqqq gilaa, penat gilaa, ngantuk gilaa". mama abah keje perli ja dat time, "suma benda pon gila ka??" but tup2 skrg pon dorg pakai jgak pkataan tuh. haha
ok, back to the main story, i personally think bleyh trima lah kalo it's a 'her' using dat pattern of language. but if it's a 'him', adoilaa~ sy x bleyh trima sgt lah kan.
adakah tuh bhs remaja zmn skrg? xjuga, sebab ada jer yg lg tua dr sy. adakah tuh bhs org bandar skrg? xjugak, ada jer dr luar bandar. adakah tuh bahasa terkini hiburan sensasi? mungkin kot...mcm cool kot kalo pakai...ala2 ikot peredaran zaman.
will i be using those kind of bahasa dlm masa tdekat? haha, dunno, for now x kot. sbb saya pon xreti biler nak tukar huruf tuh jadik 'w' (lapar-->wapar) n biler nak tambah 'h' (saya-->shaye).
then, susah jugak kang blood pressure mama saya makin naek plak sbb stress xpaham apa anak dia tulis dlm msg tuh. hehe satg msg, "mama, isha lwapar...".--> kang xpasai2 mama abah risau "penyakit apa plak anak aku kena nieh... xpnah dgq plak 'lwapar', bnyi cam kronik jer." haha
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p/s: i was thinking "ooo, niehla bahasa anak muda zmn skrg...".--> OMG, 'anak muda'?? wat am i then?? haha
aku dmm sgt trok dr smlm... mmg xlrt mgkit... aku hrpkan bila kita ikhlas bbuat baik dgn org, org akan kenang kita dan akan do the same. aku igt bila kita ikhlas caring dgn org, org akan hargainya. bila org saket, aku mmg kesian sbb aku tau mcmana susah rs saket bila xda org tolong. bila aku saket.....? kdg2 aku menyesal bbuat baik n caring kat org. alangkah baiknya kalo hati aku keras mcm batu. aku sgt cdeyh skrg... cdeyh dgn kata2 seseorg yg aku agak amik brt mcm adik...
bila time saket mcmnie... sgt rindu intan, wanie, n yus. besar jasa mereka menjaga aku tiap kali saket dulu...
on study tup tap tup tap lbeyh kurg dua minggu nak final exam. siyes kah?? huwaaa~ apa yg aku blaja slama nieh? mcm xigt apa2 pon. cuak lah niehhh.
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on crush awat nick carter mcm makin ensem nieh...
tercair la plak (euww) wpon nyampah ngan dia dulu. huhu
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on entertainment 1) sila lah watch so you think you can dance new season nieh, mmg gempak habis aa... 2) x factor mmg lg best dr american idol, dulu lyn aus idol pon mmg lg best dr us idol. hoho (knape miss frank kuarrrr???? why dat two kids john n edward r still in?!!) 3)utk sesapa dah bosan tgk one tree hill yg dah makin merapu tuh, (tp sophia bush tidak membosankan yer yana... hihi), sila lah beralih kepada the vampire diaries.
p/s: mmg cekap bab2 reality n tv series nieh, sbb 24 jam ngadap comp wat repot. haha
it's the time of the month... the time where my mood tunggang terbalik n sensitif nak mampos. yeah, typical women's enemy: PMS
lately, i'm missing my girlfriends soo badly. i wanna call them, but knowing they hv their own activities, i juz follow em up thru facebook@blog. as long as i know they're happy, i'm fine. i wanna call them but i felt 'heavy'. dunno y, i feel sad n very homesick talking to em. to ignore dis homesick feeling, i dun call em. i juz send sms and all. trust me, it's not the best time to be homesick rite now, sbb i hv a lot to focus on at the moment. i hv exams every week, i hv tons of reports yg sensei x habes2 panggil utk sesi soal jawab, tons of homeworks.
Gosh, how i hate 2nd semester. 2nd semester resulted me as a very bad daughter, gf, and friend. i seldom call home like i used to, i seldom talk to my bf on the phone, i seldom spend time to call my friend.
one of my bestfriend got hurt from an accident, wish i cud pay her a visit, but...? mimi ajak sleepover umah dier masa taikai gifu, but...? havent seen norq for a while, sdgkan last year slalu jln2 dgn dier. wanna go lepak-ing n share story wif her, but...? din called me a few times when i'm in the middle of jugyo(klas), but have i called him back...? NO. i juz texted him.
"oooh yes your honor, i'm guilty as charged."
i feel bad when they call me, but in the middle of tgh rancak berborak i hv to say, "sorry, got to go to the library, etc". balik rumah dah pkol 7, makan solat mandi, tup2 pkol 9, then wat keje smpai pg. tdo pon ntah ke mane dah. huhu. i'm sorry u guys, i promise i'm gonna make it up to u after i'm finished battling wif this semester's hectic-ness. (ooh, forgive my bad english. i'm a malay after all. haha) oh yeah, i'm also hating dis semester because my health doesnt do justice to me. always hv dis chest pain a.k.a sign of STRESS.
p/s: how i wish everyone lives near me so i can meet them easily.
p/s/s: i'm so selfish dat i hope everyone cud come to toyohashi. (igt org len xder keje ker!!) huhu
p/s/s/s:looking forward to dis aki yasumi, hopefully i can at least see norq, mimi, n cha...
✰ ✰i wish i'm a superwoman, i can be in many places at a time ✰ ✰
dis week's summary. safwan dtg, nak celebrate besday dia. pttnya besday dia saya la kne pegy sane, tp apakan daya sy bz teramat. safwan dtg pon dia dok melangut ja wat keja sndri sbb saya kne dok pi ulang alik jmpa sensei n siapkan report. ampun ya pak!! xwat apa spesel pon tuk en safwan nieh... hadiah 'dibawa ke hdpn' ok? hehe.
wiken nieh pon agak packed gakla. kelam kabut wat report➨jmpak sensei2 ➨celeb besday pakwan ➨check brake kete ➨tukar tyre kete. phewww~penat pon penat, duit pon melayang2~ wuhuuu~ oh yer, kami sempat pegy jalan2 cari makan ke hamamatsu. pegila mosaiculture yg diheboh2kan itu. tp sbb hujan xbpe masyuk lah. hoho pegi pon sbb nak tgk jln ke sana, sbb nnti kalo mimi ngan norq jadi dtg toyohashi, saya mau bawa mereka ke sana... =)
so, here r the pics. (agak malas updet blog saikin, so amik ko, nk letak gambaq byk2 bg berseri sket) haha
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posing kembangkan-idong-anda
pewwiitt~ ngorat bleyh? haha
ms nih ckp kat safwan, "i nak wat muka sexy nihhh" -mcm muka lalok nak tdoq adalah-
comeyy hat blkg tuh, mcm natchan!! haha klon gaya patung, tp sbb patung tuh comey sgt, klon x menjadi. hoho
wiwwiittt2!! baju bau kedai tuhhh~ price tag pon xbuang lg pa tuh! safwan: haa haa... wat gaya pelik2 lg. dia nih laa... ish. (ekekeke) ololo, y so serious? jgn risau, xletak hantaran mahal2 pon. Rm20k gurai ja. haha
xjmpak msia, indon pon jadiklah ronald mcdonald and gravis. huhu kat mega kebab, Alhamdulillah sedapp~safwan wat2 terharu. caih~weee~ "saya dah tua~" weee~specially ordered for him. *abaikan tulisan atas kek tuh, memandai ja makcik kedai tuh tmbah2 ayat* haha❤happy birthday dear❤
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kesimpulan utk mggu nieh:
i) best jgak sbb after a week yg pnuh dgn xms n lab reports dpt jugak release tension wif si dia. ii) xpnah pki jln2 anak tudung + slendang mcm gmba diatas. 1st time pki tdg 'awning' keras tuh ms raya aitu. saja ja pki sbb akak dah blikan. not bad jgakla, sbb wpon ujan lebat, tudung x terpenyek pon. bagus2!! (^.^)
p/s: hrp2mimi nnorq jadi dtg toyohashi dis week. miss them soo muchhh~
got these 2 today... heee~ Alhamdulillah... never in my dream i tot i'll be getting my nihon driving license masa my 1st test. why? because strict yg melampau n history shows kebykan smpai 6,7 kali amik test br lepas kot. so, i went there (the driving test centre) today wif 0% of confidence, juz thinking, xper, amik pengalaman jer. kalo ader rezeki, lepas, syukurlah. xlepas, cuba lg nanti. tgk2 dgn izinNya, Alhamdulillah lepas. mmg lucky n naseb sgt.
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penat, pnat wat hiasan daisai (univ festival) satu hal, tp xkesah sbb enjoy pon. pnat sbb satu hari xrehat jer kot.
but wats tiring me da most, is being someone whom people most likely to make fun of. it's da same old joke, over and over again. like a video tape playing and playing non stop. sumtimes it's ok, sbb skali skala, but kalo dah over sgt smpai thp nak hina tuh. enuff lah kan. coz, aku xkaco idop ko pon. u told me sumthing great happened to you, i praised u, i congratulated u. but when great things happened to me, u still keep kutuk-ing me. i mean wat the frog kan? do i NOT deserve great things?? i'm not talking about i'm a bit senior than u, so u hv to treat me specially. not dat, NOT dat. but u stil have a border that u cannot cross in a relationship between human (or even binatang), no matter wat age, wat color, wat sizes u r. dat border is call RESPECT. make fun of someone else, ok? or much better, juz make fun of urself. i seldom say dis n really mean it, but boleh blah ok?? u always say dat u're a guy of many talents n many thoughts. so, i'm sure u have great ideas of ur many thoughts on how to make fun of urself. for me, i've had enough of ur stupid jokes. (yeah, for me it's stupid)
wat's wrong wif being chubby, and being in dis size. aku pnah kaco ko ker?? ko ckp bagus, konon2 bg nasihat baek punya lah kat aku n org laen, but hv u ever think how many times u've hurt others' feelings?? i noe i'm not da only one. stop being so arrogant and so full of urself dude.
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p/s: stop picking on me on my size, weight watsoever. wat i noe is i'm still in the normal range and live in a healthy lifestyle. nak kaco sket2 sudahla, xpyh smpai melampau2. very humiliating and ckp to make me feel down.
p/s/s: dat's y, kdg2 malas nak join keramaian. if the keramaian only involve the families and the girls jer yg i'll go without hesitating.
p/s/s/s: mintak maaf entry yg sgt emo, and agak kasar...