♥ATISHOO's LiFe♥

counting the days.......

the day to.......

hurm.....

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woww...da lama x menulis kat blog nieh...gomenne bloggy...been bz wif my xm these past few weeks...anyway, to all my fwens...Selamat Hari Raya n Maaf Zahir Batin...Segala slh dan silap harap dimaafkan...
Pejam celik pejam celik...xsedar plak dis is my 3rd year celebrating raya di perantauan...huwaa...
biler da sedar nieh rase cdeyh lar plak...really mish my family...huwaa... biler dkt2 nak raya, member2...senior2 sume pon sibukla dok psg lagu raya...bkak youtube searching for drama raya lah..lagu raya barula...but not for me... believe it or not... i wont psg lagu raya or tgk drama raya sepjg2 bln ramadhan tuh...smpaila 1 syawal, br la bukak lg raya...nak tau knape?? sbb rs seksa sgt dgr lagu raya sbb asek tringat kat family n kucing2 kat msia tuh. pg raya 1 Syawal tuh pon psg sbb nak mengingatkan diri sndri today is hari raya. so, i pon bkakla imeem, cr playlist lagu raya. ada 27 lagu...for the first 1@2 songs, mmgla seksa gile nak dgr...dahla 1st song nye pulanglah by aisyah..then da 2nd one is from Sudirman...xigt tajuknya... aduhai~mcm nak pecah jer dada dok thn xmau nangis... at last, i bjaya jgak melayan lagu2 raya tsebut dgn enjoynyer...yokatta~

pegy smayang raya-->makan2 dgn org indon n arab-->balik rumah-->msk rendang-->kol family
haa~part yg kol family nieh la part yg paling sayu skali... yet i didnt cry, sbb dgr suara2 family ku yg ceria2 belaka...kol msia, talked to ma, abah, akak, cak, pak cak, k cma, ayin, at, tok, n even my nephew, da handsome amir. tried calling pakngah...tp xdpt2 pon smpai skrg.dunno why. cdeyh jgak, sbb x dpt beraya ngan dorg, since dr lahir2 pon mmg celebrate raya dgn family n sepupu2 kesygnku nieh...windu sgt2...windu jgak ngan kucing2 kat umah esp natchan. ='(

utk member2 nihon tsyg...pakwan, norq, mimi, etc.beshnye dpt beraya kt msia...gud for u!! balikla cpt... nak pow kfc n ketupat palas+rendang.heee~mish u guys.

utk member2 kat msia tsyg... ketahuilah betapa untungnye anda semua dpt beraya di sisi keluarga tersyg. so appreciate it as much as u can. i've read dis one blog (name blog dirahsiakan), dis gal is so rebellious, die siap citer ketidak puasan hatinye sbb dia nak smbut raya kat umah bf nye, tp mak nye x bg...so, dier sgt xpuas ati dgn maknye.hurm...xtau ape nak comment, but for me, hargailah ms yg ada dgn family sebaik2nya. xper, smbut raya ngan bf tuh, nanti u kawen...smbutla sepuas2nya. aper2pon tuk member2 kesygnku...syida jubri, ina, mardhi, syakirin, aimi, mida, n etc...i mish u guys sooo muchhh. n minx maaf yer salah dan silap. luv u!! *hugs*

my sis is pregnant!!Alhamdulillah.heee~congrats akak n abg israr!!happy for u guys!! =) smoga everything goes well...aminnn. "auntie sue... auntie sue... uwekkk... uwekkk(baby nangis)"--->haha, da mula brangan dah...haha

i'm not sure whether i'm being over sensitive or it's my unbalanced hormones...but all of sudden tears fall down my face as i listen to "i'll be" by edwin mccain...i luv listening 2 music especially when i'm doing works dat dun need me to pay dat much attention...usually i'll just listen, and the lyrics would be very blur n i`ll only get the beat...but just now, dis one song really gets me...i'm not sure why but among hundreds of songs in my playlist, it's the only song dat made me stuck to the lyrics...i suddenly stop doing my work, n all the lyrics seem to be very clear...which really touched me...it touched me soo badly dat i even cried.was indeed a beautiful song, n written straight from the heart.

why am i like this...?feeling insecure...n fear of everything...why?...why...?

Alhamdulillah, i`m home.huh.arrived in toyohashi around 12:27 pm.k intan fetched me (dgn celica nyer yg da mekap...kakkoi seyh)--->tenkiu 4 fetching me.was very sleepy...smpai2 rumah...thank God xder aper2 yg tputus(letrik@gas@air).hee.then i fell asleep coz it was so exhausting (nek plane, then nek densya, then shinkan, norikae2...adeihh).jage2 dah senja da pon.since i brought 1 barrel of `spicy n crunchy` kfc all the way from msia, i planned to hv a lil dinner wif my 2 dearie sempai--->intan n wanie.yay!they came around 21:00, then ktorg makan2 x igt dunia, lepak2, borak2 (owh...how i`m gonna be so lonely after they went back to msia...wuu).lame jgak lepak smbil melapah ayam2.tp, suku dr ayam2 tuh i`ve given to my not-so-tough sempai--->keba.(wakakaka).nway, i`m back to my usual life.but there`s sumthing i realized...as i came back to my apato...i can`t stop doing da houseworks.cleaning.etc. why?it dis sumkind of me giving myself a self-therapy??i mean maybe i keep myself busy to avoid thinking of home,my family, natchan...??well, if it so...i didn`t meant to be dis rajin.it`s like tama tama jer.hurm.
coming back to toyohashi, how i wished some things r changed while i was in msia.but da fact is some things juz would neva be changed.huh.so okay...but wat is the `thing` i`m talkin` about..?well, it better be left unsaid.heee.trust me it`s a very sensitive issue!


p/s: i need to give a special shoutout to someone--->jgn gaduh2...lets live in peace n harmony.*wink*

balik 'kampong' not as in "yeahhh, balik kampong!!".NOPE. absolutely not. The kampong i refer to is Toyohashi, Japan.huhu.i'll be leavin' M'sia tomorrow, n of coz i'm sad...sooo sad....hurm...wanna write some more, but i'm not in da mood(besela nak balik nihon nieh mesti bad2 mood sket)hee.
i hope it's not too late to wish: