pantang tgk pompuan lawa

tajuk jer exaggerating nieh.

juz thinking knape pompuan (referring to myself) suke la dok tgk2 blog n fesbuk pompuan2 lawa, n shojiki ni iu to (sejujurnya), wujudlah perasaan envy while adoring them at the same time. apetah lg bile wanita2 tsebut mcm seorg yg berjaya.
suke tgk smpai thp almost stalker-ish dah. haha

masa tgk2 gmbar@baca blog2 mereka nieh, mestila terdetik di sudut hati (chewwah) ayat2 nieh:

"seronoknyaa...", "untungnya...", "bestnyerrr", dll yg sewaktu dgnnya.

adakah laki ader pasaan cmnie biler tgk laki len yg kacak, macho, dsb?? (not in a gay way)

ader ker org yg x envy thadap org len? yg adore him/herself jer.
ader ker??

why adore others and not yourself??

~retarded~
(abaikan mata yg dah comot sbb dok gosok2 mata, ngee~)

p/s: rasa mcm aku adore sume org jer... huuu

calling for doctors out there!!

wat am i?? wats wrong wif me?? am i a psycho-math?

haha. sbnrnya i dun even noe wat psycho-math is? wats the meaning or does it even exist?? saje je sbb bunyi cam best. if i'm not mistaken psycho-math is someone dat do a lot of mathematics. kire mcm giler maths lah... kot. hee~

i'm not really that giler buat kira2 mathematic, cuma i dunno wats wrong wif me, n wats the name of my 'sickness'. (mental sickness??nauzubillah, minx dijauhkan). i'm juz crazy about numbers.

i always think dat everyone has their own psycho side. sometimes i do think i'm a bit gila. hakhak

not gila as in "hoo yeahh i'm gila!!!!" then do all the head banging thingy.
also not gila as in 'memancing ikan dlm baldi' or 'ikat kain pelikat kat bahu then terbang (kononla) kat koridor'--yeah, the type yg kena anto gi tanjung rambutan tuh.

gila i meant was gila as in 'psycho'. (gila-psycho, bukan samer kerrrr??) haha
ok, wateva, u noe wat i mean. (u do, rite??... or not??)
precisely saying, in my inner normal self, i hv dis awkward habits dat make me sometimes think i'm a bit psycho.
(HABIT la kot.. not psycho)

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okay, y dun u judge...
kiter continue...

example 1:

" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! --->19 "

what the chicken wif the '19'??
'19' is the number of the exclamation marks written there!!
i actually count!! i mean i do count. when i'm reading somebody's blog or comments or facebook notes, whenever they wrote these '!!!!!', '??????', '........', 'grrrrr', 'erkkkk', etc, i'll actually count all those!! --> (errr... it's '5 !', '6 ?', '8 .', '5 r', '4 k')

gila kann?? (here comes the word gila)

it really tortures me whenever dlm satu blog tuh ader byk mende2 cmnieh!!
especially when the font is so small, dat i have to copy them on notepad and make them into bigger fonts, so dat it's easy for me to do the counting!

gilaa kann? (here comes another one)

example 2:
i even count the pages for each book dat i read or use.
as for story book@ text book pages are written there, so no fuss about it, juz add the cover and the page for the context.
utk note book, evethough dah tulis buku tuh ader bpe pages, i still wanna count them!
buku purikura n calendar pon aku kira!!

kadang2 penat n i feel almost gila (again, gila) doing all these things, but i still have to do it, kalo x wat rs insecure n x sdp hati.

paranoid?

i'm so crazy about numbers and counting, kalo aku dpt cipta formula mathematic baru xperlah jugak, but...??

example 3:
baru2 nieh my sis blikan beg skolah br utk saya, and it has love prints all over the bag.
and surprise2... i pushed myself to count all those love prints.
adeihh~ penat2... byklah menda laen lg aku kira~
sbb tuh kalo baca komik ker, lambat giler nak habes.
dis habit started since saya di aaj, um, kalo x slh.
makin lama makin menjadi2.

sometimes i told myself "ISHA, IT'S OK NOT TO COUNT ALL THAT!!"--> nada tegas.
but i end up counting jugak.
is there anyone out there having da same prob as i do??

doctors out there, please help me wif my prob!!

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okay, xmasuk bab pegy supermarket lagi. bab nieh safwan mmg dah pakar dah!!
dia pon pening kepala tp mcm dah redha jer dgn perangai saya bila pegy supermarket. kesian dia mesti kdg2 dier rs segan jgak bila gf dier nieh dok susun baju, susun2 susu kotak, sayur, dll kat supermarket tuh!! part time kah...?? BUKAN. kenapakah?? hurm...biler2 nnti saya citer yer...

adik nakalku, natchan

p/s: naseb baek aku xpernah tergerak nak kira bulu adik2 saya. (natchan, nemo, salem, dodo)

p/s/s: based on my 'experience', ramai suka tulis noktah(.) 3 kali. huhu. kbykan nombor ganjil... huhu

2nd n 4th Nov

wpon dah 5hb, saya still nak post dis specially dedicated to Mama n Abah.
(dis post is gonna be very similar to last year's, hehe)

first,
2nd September...

♥HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA♥

luv u soo much!!
thanx for being a very sporting n loving mom.

yer2, unlike me, my mom mmg petite ok... huhu

meh nak citer sket pasai my mom.
saya sgt kagum dgn mama, she's a woman wif many talent. benti keje semata2 nak jaga me n my sis, siyesly, pengorbanan mama xkan terbayar oleh kami... thank u soo much mama. she's such a loving wife, mom, aunt, grandma, dll. hee~

my mum, eventhough she's a housewife, i've never seen a more busier housewife than she is. aper korg igt suri rumah dok rumah goyang kaki?? owwhh not my mum. sentiasa penuhkan masa dgn kerja2nyer, mcm lipas kudung berjln ke sana ke mari. kdg2 i tego my mum, "mama, mehla dok tgk movie sat, pening isha tgk mama asek ulang alik depan blkg wat keja!"

risau jgak mama nih overwork. she's like superwoman, keje2 laki mcm bertukang sume pon dier wat. antara yg saya kagum, dier yg cuci2 dinding n lekat2 wallpaper satu umah tuh sendiri~ besenye mestila upah org len kan? huhu.
tp kadang2 saya bersyukur mama nieh x bekerja, sbb saya rs kalo mama kerja mestila dia sorg workaholic. as a surirumah pon nampak mcm workaholic dah.


mama nieh dulu penari tradisional, n dpt tawaran ke peringkat lg tggi tp dia tolak tawaran tuh sbb time tuh xder ahli keluarga yg dok kl. mcm cuak2 la kot. tp rsnya bakat mama nieh turun kat kakak saya kot. mama juga power english time skola2 dl, essay tbaik peringkat negeri rsnya. (sbb tuh dier risau dgn english saya yg makin2 berhabuk semenjak dok jepon).

saya slalu terpikir kalo mama nih bkn seorg suri rumah, apekah profession dier? bleyh jgak nak kate arkitek sbb sgt kreatif n berseni (design2 kayu utk depan rumah kami tuh adalah idea mama), bleyh jgak nak kate jd doctor, sbb suke bace buku2 medic, siap2 tau scientific name lg. dulu be4 aku disahkan kne thyroidism, mak aku yg ckp dl aku kne thyroid nih, wpon doc 1st aku pegy ckp aku saket jantung. nauzubillah.
tp part kreatif mmg kreatif sgtla, bleylak tetiba my mum n my sis pandai wat bunga dip(utk hantaran kawen tuh)!! haha. jimat belanja utk hntaran nnti. hakhak.

antara her ideas the design, etc

antara hasil tgn mama. agak terer kan utk bkn penggubah profesional dgn kurg basic.

tp bsyukur having her to us all the time, rs mcm kawan baik, sbb bleyh citer mcm2 kat mama, mmg sporting sgt!! i also luv looking through her pics zmn dulu2, mama mmg lawa!! antara yg plg best is mama pnye fashion sense nih mmg best lah, sbb same jer mcm sy n kakak saya. jd kalo mama kata dia bli bj kat saya, saya mmg senang ati jer, sbb tau mama nyer taste mcm saya jgak!!

hurm, nak citer sume mcm byk sgt, org yg baca pon buhsan kang. i noe everyone will say the same about their mom too, kan?? enuff said, mama is da best!! hikhik. (windu mi kari mama yg mmg tip top!!)

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ok next!!
4th September...

♥HAPPY 30th ANNIVERSARY ABAH n MAMA♥

(30 years and still counting. insyaAllah. heee~)

Happy Anniv abah n mama!!

always adore how it's been 30 years but both of u still lovey dovey mcm zmn bercinta muda2 dulu. (they're like the cutest n lovely couple ever for me. haha)

i learnt n still learning a lot from u guys about love n relationships. juz want both of u to know how lucky me n akak to hv such supportive n sporting n loving parents like u!!

i remember ms dulu2 how i used to 'curi2' selongkar dis one box, where my mom kept all the surat2 cinta (dl xder hp@email ok?) n kenangan2 dier n abah. ekekeke. mmg sweet sgt2 all those surat, eventhough i didnt get to read all of them sbb everytime terkantoi ngan mama!! haha.

acting remaja-ish. haha

even now, after 23 years, i still luv asking on how u first met, and everything... i know i'll get the same answer from both of u everytime i asked, i know it's gonna be the same story all over again, but it never bores me, and wat's better, it never bores both of u too telling me the same story.
i felt touched on how everytime abah n mama cerita kisah susah senang dr sblm kawen smpai skrg, u both hv dis same look on ur face, all of sudden muka berseri jer dua2.


they went through a lot together, through ups n downs, dats wat keep them going strong. wish all the happiness in the world for them... insyaAllah. amin...

last but not least, saja2 nak selit skalik, family pic taken on the 1st Hari Raya aritu. (curik from abg rizal's fesbuk... hehe... ampun yaa abg rizal)

luv all of u～

without me in it...sob3...

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p/s: in case ader yg bosan wif me bragging bout my family... hee~ skali skala. everyone cant stop talking n bragging when it comes to family, rite?? hehe~
p/s/s: sbb tuh aku xleyh trime org yg dok kutuk2 mak bapak dorg kat blog dsb tuh.thank God none of them are among my fwens.

i feel old...

juz got back from clinic, suhu agak tinggi 37.8.
but thank God not h1n1 okey.
doc said my nadi laju bebenor (pandai ckp melayu doc nieh).
mmg pon smpai x leyh lena sbb dok dup dap dup dap ja jantung.
tp okey kot... br pas mkn ubat, n tggu ms nak lelap jer nieh. ngee~

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wat about the title?
ok, alkisahnya mmg i feel old n seasoned btol lately nieh.
sesape yg ader facebook sure tau kan, friends' updated status will be featured dekat news feed kiter tuh kan?
same la jgak kalo dorg komen2 gmbar or comment2 kat wall rakan2 mereka yg juga rakan2 kiter.
so, reading all those stuffs really makes me feel old. kenapakah??
let's see... i give u an example k...

"shaye wase shaye shuke la pakai waju nieh" --> oh, ok...
"awak mamam apa tadi? shaye nak mamam jugak, pewut lwapar...." -->errr, oo..k....
"gwedik lah awak nieh, shuke hati shaye lew"--> nieh ok kot... huhu

mase memula baca dis kind ok 'bahasa', saya rs mcm saya buta bahasa melayu kah??
siyes xpaham. 2,3 kali tgk br dpt figure out.
i think dis is how our parents feel, when their children started texting them using dis sort of "bahasa org muda".
i remember when i first started texting my mum n dad using the word giler@gila.
such as "lapaqqq gilaa, penat gilaa, ngantuk gilaa".
mama abah keje perli ja dat time, "suma benda pon gila ka??"
but tup2 skrg pon dorg pakai jgak pkataan tuh. haha

ok, back to the main story, i personally think bleyh trima lah kalo it's a 'her' using dat pattern of language.
but if it's a 'him', adoilaa~ sy x bleyh trima sgt lah kan.

adakah tuh bhs remaja zmn skrg?
xjuga, sebab ada jer yg lg tua dr sy.
adakah tuh bhs org bandar skrg?
xjugak, ada jer dr luar bandar.
adakah tuh bahasa terkini hiburan sensasi?
mungkin kot...mcm cool kot kalo pakai...ala2 ikot peredaran zaman.

will i be using those kind of bahasa dlm masa tdekat?
haha, dunno, for now x kot.
sbb saya pon xreti biler nak tukar huruf tuh jadik 'w' (lapar-->wapar) n biler nak tambah 'h' (saya-->shaye).

then, susah jugak kang blood pressure mama saya makin naek plak sbb stress xpaham apa anak dia tulis dlm msg tuh. hehe
satg msg, "mama, isha lwapar...".--> kang xpasai2 mama abah risau "penyakit apa plak anak aku kena nieh... xpnah dgq plak 'lwapar', bnyi cam kronik jer." haha

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p/s: i was thinking "ooo, niehla bahasa anak muda zmn skrg...".--> OMG, 'anak muda'?? wat am i then?? haha

~sob3~

sgt cdeyh...

aku dmm sgt trok dr smlm...
mmg xlrt mgkit...
aku hrpkan bila kita ikhlas bbuat baik dgn org, org akan kenang kita dan akan do the same.
aku igt bila kita ikhlas caring dgn org, org akan hargainya.
bila org saket, aku mmg kesian sbb aku tau mcmana susah rs saket bila xda org tolong.
bila aku saket.....?
kdg2 aku menyesal bbuat baik n caring kat org.
alangkah baiknya kalo hati aku keras mcm batu.
aku sgt cdeyh skrg...
cdeyh dgn kata2 seseorg yg aku agak amik brt mcm adik...

bila time saket mcmnie... sgt rindu intan, wanie, n yus. besar jasa mereka menjaga aku tiap kali saket dulu...

-writing thru iphone... xlrt bgn... tp nak tulis sbb tlampau hurt sgt skrg nieh, xtau nak luah kat mana...

random babbling

on study
tup tap tup tap lbeyh kurg dua minggu nak final exam.
siyes kah??
huwaaa~ apa yg aku blaja slama nieh?
mcm xigt apa2 pon.
cuak lah niehhh.

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on crush
awat nick carter mcm makin ensem nieh...

tercair la plak (euww) wpon nyampah ngan dia dulu. huhu

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on entertainment
1) sila lah watch so you think you can dance new season nieh, mmg gempak habis aa...
2) x factor mmg lg best dr american idol, dulu lyn aus idol pon mmg lg best dr us idol. hoho
(knape miss frank kuarrrr???? why dat two kids john n edward r still in?!!)
3)utk sesapa dah bosan tgk one tree hill yg dah makin merapu tuh, (tp sophia bush tidak membosankan yer yana... hihi), sila lah beralih kepada the vampire diaries.

p/s: mmg cekap bab2 reality n tv series nieh, sbb 24 jam ngadap comp wat repot. haha

pms...i'm guilty!!

it's the time of the month...
the time where my mood tunggang terbalik n sensitif nak mampos.
yeah, typical women's enemy: PMS

lately, i'm missing my girlfriends soo badly.
i wanna call them, but knowing they hv their own activities, i juz follow em up thru facebook@blog.
as long as i know they're happy, i'm fine.
i wanna call them but i felt 'heavy'.
dunno y, i feel sad n very homesick talking to em.
to ignore dis homesick feeling, i dun call em. i juz send sms and all.
trust me, it's not the best time to be homesick rite now, sbb i hv a lot to focus on at the moment.
i hv exams every week, i hv tons of reports yg sensei x habes2 panggil utk sesi soal jawab, tons of homeworks.

Gosh, how i hate 2nd semester.
2nd semester resulted me as a very bad daughter, gf, and friend.
i seldom call home like i used to, i seldom talk to my bf on the phone, i seldom spend time to call my friend.

one of my bestfriend got hurt from an accident, wish i cud pay her a visit, but...?
mimi ajak sleepover umah dier masa taikai gifu, but...?
havent seen norq for a while, sdgkan last year slalu jln2 dgn dier. wanna go lepak-ing n share story wif her, but...?
din called me a few times when i'm in the middle of jugyo(klas), but have i called him back...? NO. i juz texted him.

"oooh yes your honor, i'm guilty as charged."

i feel bad when they call me, but in the middle of tgh rancak berborak i hv to say, "sorry, got to go to the library, etc".
balik rumah dah pkol 7, makan solat mandi, tup2 pkol 9, then wat keje smpai pg. tdo pon ntah ke mane dah. huhu.
i'm sorry u guys, i promise i'm gonna make it up to u after i'm finished battling wif this semester's hectic-ness.
(ooh, forgive my bad english. i'm a malay after all. haha)

oh yeah, i'm also hating dis semester because my health doesnt do justice to me.
always hv dis chest pain a.k.a sign of STRESS.


p/s: how i wish everyone lives near me so i can meet them easily.

p/s/s: i'm so selfish dat i hope everyone cud come to toyohashi. (igt org len xder keje ker!!) huhu

p/s/s/s:looking forward to dis aki yasumi, hopefully i can at least see norq, mimi, n cha...

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summary minggu ini 1

dis week's summary.
safwan dtg, nak celebrate besday dia.
pttnya besday dia saya la kne pegy sane, tp apakan daya sy bz teramat.
safwan dtg pon dia dok melangut ja wat keja sndri sbb saya kne dok pi ulang alik jmpa sensei n siapkan report.
ampun ya pak!!
xwat apa spesel pon tuk en safwan nieh... hadiah 'dibawa ke hdpn' ok? hehe.

nway, teman pakwan sopping sakan, then tetibe saya pon dpt hadiah, katanye sempene besday dier.
aikkk?? 逆じゃん？ hehe. tenkiu btw!!

wiken nieh pon agak packed gakla.
kelam kabut wat report ➨jmpak sensei2 ➨celeb besday pakwan ➨check brake kete ➨tukar tyre kete.
phewww~ penat pon penat, duit pon melayang2~ wuhuuu~
oh yer, kami sempat pegy jalan2 cari makan ke hamamatsu.
pegila mosaiculture yg diheboh2kan itu. tp sbb hujan xbpe masyuk lah. hoho
pegi pon sbb nak tgk jln ke sana, sbb nnti kalo mimi ngan norq jadi dtg toyohashi, saya mau bawa mereka ke sana... =)

so, here r the pics.
(agak malas updet blog saikin, so amik ko, nk letak gambaq byk2 bg berseri sket) haha

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posing kembangkan-idong-anda

pewwiitt~ ngorat bleyh? haha

ms nih ckp kat safwan, "i nak wat muka sexy nihhh"
-mcm muka lalok nak tdoq adalah-

comeyy hat blkg tuh, mcm natchan!! haha
klon gaya patung, tp sbb patung tuh comey sgt, klon x menjadi. hoho

wiwwiittt2!! baju bau kedai tuhhh~ price tag pon xbuang lg pa tuh!
safwan: haa haa... wat gaya pelik2 lg. dia nih laa... ish. (ekekeke)
ololo, y so serious? jgn risau, xletak hantaran mahal2 pon. Rm20k gurai ja. haha

xjmpak msia, indon pon jadiklah
ronald mcdonald and gravis. huhu
kat mega kebab, Alhamdulillah sedapp~safwan wat2 terharu. caih~weee~ "saya dah tua~" weee~specially ordered for him.
*abaikan tulisan atas kek tuh, memandai ja makcik kedai tuh tmbah2 ayat* haha❤happy birthday dear❤

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kesimpulan utk mggu nieh:

i) best jgak sbb after a week yg pnuh dgn xms n lab reports dpt jugak release tension wif si dia.
ii) xpnah pki jln2 anak tudung + slendang mcm gmba diatas. 1st time pki tdg 'awning' keras tuh ms raya aitu. saja ja pki sbb akak dah blikan. not bad jgakla, sbb wpon ujan lebat, tudung x terpenyek pon. bagus2!! (^.^)

p/s: hrp2 mimi n norq jadi dtg toyohashi dis week. miss them soo muchhh~