♥ATISHOO's LiFe♥

i'm going 23 yrs old dis year. 22 sounds fine, but 23 does make me feel a lil old. 23 sounds soo mature, which i dunt think i am yet. being in dis age makes me think whether i've changed... physically n mentally. physically, do i look different from years before?? mentally, am i mature enough to make a bigger decisions?? for me, the most important thing of being mature is his/her capability of being patient, the ability to control n manage his/her emotions no matter wat situation they're put into. hurm... mentally for me... i dunno. it's hard to judge my own self. a lil patient?? well, maybe.

well, physically, looking back at my old pictures, i dunt think i changed dat much. maybe changed a lil here n there, such as my skin a bit darker when i was in school, all because of playing netball for my school team. i used to wear spectacles but now i'm comfortable in contact lenses. other than dat... hurm... taller?? nahh... dun think so. basically i dunt think i changed at all, physically. but dis is just from my point of view.

however, i think wats different bout me these days is people's 1st impression on me . different than before, all i used to hear about my fwens' 1st impressions on me is dat i'm friendly (a.k.a byk ckp), lemah lembut (read: 1st impression k??), cheerful, etc.(note: 1st impression can be pretty deceiving) but from my recent visit to Gifu, where i get to meet a few people whom i used to noe only from afar... they told me their 1st impression on me, something which i've never heard before.

the story goes like this...
they asked how r their fwens, who moved into toyohashi univ (my univ) dis year getting along here. i said i get along wif da girls fine, but the guys seem a lil afraid of me. they seem to freak out when i greet them at school or anywhere else. not all of them, but most of them. i dunt hv any idea why... their reactions r not like others' towards me (some of them even stuttered). haha. wonder why.
then back to these guys who asked me about their fwens... they dun seem surprised at all. they all agreed dat they thought i was garang at 1st... yes, all dis while they thought i was garang. dats their 1st impression on me until they get to noe me. wow, i'm surprised!!
wahhh, maybe i look more mature@fierce@serious now?? dl nampak lembut n now nampak garang?? (sronok plak) haha. is it da sign of maturity?? is it true i look garang?? hurm...